Friday, May 14, 2004
i can't believe how fast this week has gone by.
i just had my first week of my internship. 9 more to go.
i'm indeed blessed as i look around and see the people that i'm working with. everyone is a rocket scientist in their own right. where am i? at the bottom of the barrel. damn it. i'm kinda sad and depressed as well. but i'm telling myself that this is a super opportunity and i'm indeed blessed.
yea, who cares that i'm an idiot? i know i am. and in that way, i guess they have no expectations of me as well. that's gd. i'm here to learn. who cares whether i'm dumb. if i don't make it, i don't. there's always something else. this is an opportunity.
everyday on my way to work, i pray and thank the Lord for this opportunity. never take your eye off the prize. keep running the race, determined, willed and with the end in mind. i want to learn. i want to be the best i can. i want to be the person that God has mapped me out to be.
i was indeed falling asleep during all the trainings, and i'm just using this as an opportunity to make contacts, learn and expose myself to all these sort of areas that i otherwise have no chance to get.
i keep telling myself that i'm inferior to the rest, but deep down, i'm thinking that whatever i lose out in qualifications, i tell myself that i make up in my attitude. laura and shiqi said so, and i guess that's wat i got employed for. my attitude. think i really need to brush up on all my other shitty stuff. GRR.
i know i can do it. and i will.
shiqi's really smart. she's like another econs god. her cap's 4.94 man. that's ridiculious. hahaha... oh well...
and then there's aurelius. funky name eh. he's pretty gd looking except for the fact that he's short and er... smokes. haha... not that i have anything against smokers, considering i'm one too... but, yea, at first i thought he was kinda interested, either that or just friendly... and he is good looking lar. honestly. haha... but anyway, he's attached, so... yes.
then there's shiyang. he's really nice. with a funny sense of humour. haha... he is nice lar... taller than aurelius, so that's gd! haha... but let's just see how things progressed.
then there's thomas... the german guy. eyerr...
2 thai girls, from sassin, bangkok. they're doing their MBA, so nan's 27 and laura's 31. they're both pretty nice pple. just came back from newton to show her the place.
2 china guys which are nice, but er... they're PRCs. nuff said.
was praying for a nice mentor, and i guess since beng called to talk to me, that's nice enough. and when i met him, he was really nice and talked to me and all... mark wong was really nice too. actually sat me down and drew me a flow chart and explained where he was coming from. indeed, the Lord has blessed me with such great people around me and i'm glad that even in a mess of this world, he is still looking over me, and even though the world is crazy on 0801, He's in charge. He deals, He trades.
i'm going to give my best shot at this. i only get one chance.
