Friday, December 31, 2004
I'M HOME!!!
after a 13hr flight, i'm dead tired, i'm 2 bags overweight...
i'm home!
Thursday, December 30, 2004
i'm coming home!!!
Monday, December 27, 2004
today is the 26th dec.
boxing day.
boxing day sale.
we woke up at 0545 to go for the next sale which started at 7am. we missed the bus and in the end, walked to town. hey, my brother and his gf happen to have 1.5x the legs than me... so they take like one stride and i take 2.
hence, there was one very tired tania before the sale started.
now, waking up early for a sale is not new to me. i'm a vertern at mango in s'pore where the mango opens at like at 8am the earliest, and the rest of the outlets varies. i'm vicious, and i plan my mode of attack. i thought i was good...
but the sales here have so much more ooomph! they are seriously cheaper, (think in norminal terms) and there's really a crowd. i was queeing outside marks and spenser and i was just filled with old people. i felt bad pushing old people just to get to my bras.
yes, i got 9 bras. and i think i might go back and get some more. hee
so all in all, my haul: 5 business shirts (the cutting is so much better than G2000), 1 skirt, 9 bras, 3 bags anda 3 earings.
the sale is good.
i've packed and my bag is full. urgh. right now i'm typing this and my brother and his gf are lying on the bed... oh well....
guess it's time to sleep as well.... hum...
we continue the sale tom
it's the 27th dec, monday, oo30hr
has it already been 2 weeks since i met my brother? has it been 3 weeks since i left home? somehow, it all seems so short, like i just left yesterday, and yet, i've done so much and seen so much that i can't believe that it has only been 3 weeks.
it all seems so surrel, paris and nice, the eiffel tower, arc de triumph, moulin rouge, the beach...
did i really see all of those? was i really that lucky to actually touch and feel the tower, to stand on top of everything and see the view?
it doesn't seem real...
and as quickly as i came into the uk, i can feel it slipping away... i only have 3 days left here... leaving glasgow tomorrow at 4 and going back london to stay with kim and weiye.
halfway through, i started to miss home, miss my mummy and my bed... ah, the comforts of having my own clean toilet. yes, i have a maid.
i know this is a holiday and it must come to an end. i must go back to singapore, and to reality. the reality of which, i am going to be year 3, sem 2, last sem and graduating in may. how fast is that?
i can't live in this fantasy world forever... it'll be over soon... 3 more days.
Saturday, December 25, 2004
christmas dinner was fabulous!! and guess wat? aaron actually bought me a present!!!
weeeee....
dinner was great. there was honey baked ham, stuffed chicken, apragus and mushrooms, salad, chilli prawns and 2 tubs of ice cream!!! woohoo.
food was nothing short of fantastic. i wld upload pictures, just that i don't know how on my brother's computer...
food was really great, i had great company, and i am stuffed... not so much as the chicken, but stuffed in my own respect.
the highlight is...
it snowed!!! it finally snowed!!! after shivering for the past 2 weeks in the cold weather, i finally got rewarded... i saw snow.
now, andy said, "what, NEVER seen snow? as in NEVER?!!!" hey, living in a tropical climate, i can be forgiven for not seeing snow ok.
i saw snow falling from the sky, not some shit snow defrosting on the floor. i didn't get a chance to actually feel snow on my face... cos i was too lazy to wear a jacket and get out. but i saw it from my window, and it was nice... not as magical as i imagine... not like angel and buffy kind of snow on the sunnydale hill top... but it was nice.
so yes, my virgin time seeing snow... can't blame me for being excited like a little girl can u?
it's complete. i have a white christmas...
it is christmas eve... everyone is out bustling and doing last minute shopping... walking along the shopping street (notice the singular term) of glasgow, i see friends hurrying about with their massive bags of shopping, families huddling together, carollers singing along the roadside... plus, it did looked like it snowed today. just semi-snowed...
does it feel like christmas?
it doesn't... i walk past the throngs of people, i go to all the carnivals, i see the christmas decorations and i hear the carols playing... it doesn't mean anything to me...
why?
cos i'm not home... i'm not at home, planning wat to wear on christmas day, wat pressents to buy my friends, wat parties to attend, or attending mid night mass... i'm not home.
i miss my friends and family back home... i know i've only been away for slightly over 2 weeks now, but it's more during the festive season that u wished u were home... perhaps things might have been better if i was actually visiting my bf rather than my brother... holidays are the time when u reflect on life and think where's the other half...
last christmas was the first christmas i spent alone, so i guess i'm not really into the feeling sad for myself this year... also with the bussle of being away and jet setting from country to country... it has really kept my mind of things... though i will admit that my mind might have tended towards kc, jeff or bern... but all in all, this feels more like a holiday, rather than the holiday season.
i'm ok lar... just that it doesn't feel like it's christmas...
the prelude to christmas wld always be my birthday... i'll celebrate my birthday and then 2 weeks later, it's christmas... but since i didn't celebrate my birthday this year, and it just passed without me giving an extra thought to it... christmas will pass as well...
so what if it's christmas?
i want to be at home with my family and friends exchanging pressents, cursing and swearing at how hot the weather is, rushing to get last minute pressents (as always), queeing up for taxis to drag ALL my shopping home... yea, something like that...
i miss home.
Friday, December 24, 2004
exam results are out tom. actually, since i'm over in glasgow, according to singapore time, my results are coming out in 7 hrs time.
this is not good.
if i don't say anything, that means that i'm dead.
Thursday, December 23, 2004
heya...
apparently that's how the glaswegians greet each other... that's a stark difference from hearing bonjour / bonsoir ... but it's ok... just some getting used to that there are so many old people here.
i'm finally at my brother's place... after leaving home on the 8th dec... i'm finally here. yes. sending 16kg luggage up to glasgow, just for king aaron. my whole luggage was full of his crap, so of course i made him carry it. but seeing the look on his face as i presented each and every single item from singapore over, it was worth it... haha... hey, i brought ALOT of things over ok.
anyway, i'm sick and tired... though it's a hard fight to see which one takes precedence. my brother and i got so sick by the 5th day in paris that we both just refused to get out of bed. wat a waste huh, but it was prob for the best, cos friday was the day when paris had a super mama bad storm which killed 5 people. oh well.
so right now i'm sitting at my brother's desk, using his end of the internet, talking to people in singapore. wat a reversal of roles. it seems as if i'm on the other side now, looking in. i miss home, but yet, the freedom i have travelling alone is enriching.
i have taken a million pictures. alot of which are of the food that i've eaten in paris, nice and london. and trust me, it was good food. but... BUT, today's dinner, my brother's home cooked dinner was better than any of the french/italian/chinese food i've had for the past 14 days.
today's dinner was of oven baked tiger prawns with parsley and garlic, chili soaked chicken wings, asparagous and mushrooms, and pasta. it was seriously REALLY good. kudous to king aaron.
i will upload photos of my trip soon, but here are the links of those photos taken before i left:
1) wakeboarding pics http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2134466638
2) 4B3 class reunion http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2134470845
3) 21st birthday celebration http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2134599288
Saturday, December 18, 2004
in paris for the week now...
it*s beautiful!!! i*m actually leaving now for nice...
the french uses a different keyboard so this is rather hard for ,e to type...
more later!!
miss everyone back home
Thursday, December 09, 2004
I AM IN LONDON!!! woohoo.
the flight was horrible, let's not talk abt it... but anyway, i made it here... sitting at my cousin's desk and typing this. suffering from serious jetlag. yawn. it's 910pm here but it's like 5am singapore time. this is not good. i am so... tired!!
anyway, the weather is lovely. not too cold. it's nice and chilly. really looking forward to spending the next few days here and seeing london... mostly i think it'll be by myself, but it's ok... looking forward to catchin up with a few friends. yippie.
anyway, for those who are in london and are reading this, give me a call!!! haha... looking forward to just spending some time with u guys, looking at the sights and touristy stuff in london!!
catchya guys around!!
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
leaving for london soon. in like 5 hrs time.
why am i not asleep? cos i was until just now, busy packing, busy hiding money, and busy basically doing everything that i shld have been doing like years ago... haha... crap
and guess wat? i've totally not planned wat i'm going to do over there. i'm just basically going there and go with the flow...
SHAGADELIC BABY!!!
it seems like i've been planning this trip for ages, and yet, i'm so unprepared!! oh well... that's pretty crappy. shsss... don't tell my brother, but i've not planned the paris and nice trip yet. SHIT... he is soo going to kill me and take away my mojo.
oh well... am i excited? i think i'm more looking forward to being enclosed on the plane and getting some serious shut eye. i'm so mega tired that it's not funny. haven't been sleeping ever since my exams ended... but really going out and partying.
and boy have i had fun.
just today, met up with the 4B3 people. had dinner at tangos, and desert at haagen dazs. nice... dinner was nice, though it was a tad bit expensive... nmind lar... money i can always earn back... RIGHT!!!
anyway, wld upload pics but i am so bloody freaking tired that i really can't move anymore. and it's not funny. bitch.
aching from wakeboarding and too tired from not sleeping.
oh oh oh, my parents celebrated my bday with me today at sushi tei paragon. i love that place, cos for one... kc brought me there and i've got nice memories of the place... hhaha... ok, besides that.........
it as surprising that my parents wld want to eat jap food there. it seems like we never ever go out and eat at restaurants unless it's tony romas... where as i'm always the one going out eating at these places with my friends... it's nice that i can bring my parents over to eat at the places that i eat at.
but today was nice... it felt like a sunday where we went out as a family and also spent some time shopping with my dad... daddy... yippie.
guess now that i'm going away for like 25 days... i feel abit sad and all, going to miss my family and friends and of course all the happening parties that are happening around christmas!!!
damn! no egg nough (how do u spell that) .. or no misltoe kiss. haha
anyway, it's 4am. i got to wake up at 6am. damn it. mummy's going to scream if she found out i ponly had like 2 hrs of sleep!! haha... damn it.
but i will miss my family, my bed, my maid!! haha. crap. i've never washed my own clothes b4!!! urgh!!
ok people, i will try to update as long as i have computer excess. in the meantime, take care of urself, don't put on too much holiday weight, and be MERRY!!!
love u guys, seeya when i get back!!!
Monday, December 06, 2004
lunch @ rice table
the girls
illegal cell
mini obsession @ big O
the cake
looks like we're at a club huh
me!!
i hope they don't smash my face in
me and the guys!
the whole gang!
cutting cake
this is going STRAIGHT to my hips!
gary said, "he finds u hot. seriously. but he can't... he didn't want to have any emotional ties since he was leaving already."
so wat does that mean... somehow i always pictured myself landing up together with him. like seriously to-the-end of time kind.
oh well. it's not my fault. it's not my problem. it's his.
and i'm still waiting for him to fix it.
why?
it's amazing that i can be so busy after exams and when i have the car... and i still don't get enough sleep!
met andreas in town on sat and he told bern that i looked like i got punched. ouch. i know i had eyebags... but to get punched? that's abit serious man... unless my whole face is like puffy and stuff. shit... haha...
talked to bern over yahoo just now... it seems weird to talk to him after wat happened on fri... apparently he was telling me that i was so pissed drunk that i kept on rumbling rubbish on and on... wasn't very coherant was i?! shit... so paiseh... i didn't know that i was just talking rubbish. thought that i was falling all over the place and dancing... that was all... haha... oh well...
no more clubbing for me till i get back... don't think i'll be clubbing in london... it's going to be SO expensive.. plus i don't really wanna be out late in a foreign country... and i am staying with li lin... not too nice if i come home at some ungodly hour man!!
anyway, been packing my bag... i've just been throwing things in the corner of my room and hoping that it'll just somehow or rather just fold themselves and get into my bag!! hahaha... damn. why can't i have a genie or something?! haha... bern just looked at the pile on the floor and rolled his eyes!! haha...
today celebrated my bday with my church friends... had lunch @ the rice table at international plaza, and later on cut my cake over at Big O. i really had fun today... i really feel that i might be able to grow old with these people... and as for jerry... hum... i dunno man... haha... well... he is the best fit of the lot for me... haha... but i believe that there's someone better out there!! haha
they got me this lovely fossil watch that i really like. been looking for a watch with a big stripe... it's nice lar... and they got me gucci rush too... got a nice bracelet from deb and a bag from angie... very nice...
later on i went out with deb... it's amazing how one night at zouk can make us talk to each other... hum... maybe it's just weird... i mean, i don't want to seem like i go out with her just cos of her sis and all... nah... just think that she's pretty similiar to me... ie my kuan kind lar... same frequency...
came back around 7+... and just stayed on the computer since... wanted to go out and watch a show but luckily i didn't i might have died from being too tired! haha... was online mostly to download the pictures, and plan the trip, and chat!!
anyway, was glad that i spent sunday night at home... really needed time alone at home to just think abt things and start planing!! and packing. not bad... most of the stuff are in the bag already... just need to prob re-arrange things and pack more of my brother's things.
haha... i just got an email from him. "could u pack up half of sim-lim and ship it over?"
haha... funny right... ASS.
anyway, will upload some of my bday pics..
Sunday, December 05, 2004
jack's party
the return of the exS!!
the babes!!! addy, me, sam, lee
birthday boy and i (shit i am so short)
he is a real lucky dude!!
me and the guys!! koofy, jack, gary
swim reunion @ crystal jade la mian... fj, zq, diaz, me, chun, zhiwei
ran into gao at wheellock!! haha...
get ready for major photo overload!!
addy was basically trigger happy... before we went zouk...
ok, this was when we were still sober
after we dressed up
er... not that glam huh...
more glam...
not good enough?! *pouts*
Saturday, December 04, 2004
i can't believe how much i've done in the last few days!!
you know i want to blog abt the interview... as in the interview itself... but somehow in light of what has happened over the past few days... it just seems so long ago and irrevalent... haha... oh well... bottom line is, i guess it was fate lar. it was just not meant to be.
ok... so my parents are not in town. neither is alex... so basically i have the whole house to myself. and so many things have happened that make me think that i am so not ready to live abroad by myself...
the gist? i got locked out of the house for like 1 hr... idiot maid apparently fell asleep and i cldn't get in cos she just didn't pick up the phone. now... that's ridiculous lar... it was like 8+pm and she was asleep already? aiyar... don't know whether she was sleeping or she sneaked out. dunno... don't care... haha...
and then the car was fucked. the alarm kept on going on and off... so retarded!!! so there i am at newton carpark trying to get my car working again and again... crap... i have no idea what's wrong with the car lar. i give up... luckily it's working now...
so anyway, i'm kinda enjoying life... brought mama and ah kong out for lunch on friday and was joined by rach and christine... then went over to rach's new house and took a look... not bad!!!
went partying last night at zouk... got in free cos of the zouk out tickets.. haha... not bad... so when we were inside, i was just buying drinks like no body's business... i really had so much to drink!!! had a few birthday drinks with the girls... addy, vivian, teresa, deb... and come on... 5 hot girls?!! there were alot of guys surrounding us ok!! haha... not bad....
ah kee and bern came over from velvet... was dancing with bern and like holding his hand most of the time cos i was so damn pissed lar... haha... oh well... but i did have fun... and of course i had more fun the whole night!! things just seemed so fun when i'm high!! woohoo!! and then ah kee and all the rest go on the podium...
oh oh oh, alex came!! haha... hiyar, i was so basically pissed that i didn't know what was going on lar. haha... anyway, i had fun lar... bern sent me back and came in for a while... after i sobered up i drove him back... was feeling ok lar. then i puked... and didn't stop till this morning! haa...
today had a swim team reunion lunch at crystal jade la mian taka... the guys were fun lar... just weird that it was like 5 guys and 1 girl... haha... oh well. stupid freddie. told him in advance and he went to play soccer!! so irritating!
met addy and then she joined me for service at church... intro-ed her to the whole illegal cell... haha... hope she had fun... then we had dinner at newton. cuper crazy man!! i hate driving... i rahter be driven...
after that we went down for jt's birthday... met up with some old friends and it was nice.... gary said some stuff abt kc that made me really think... oh well... i'll have plenty of time to think on the plane lar... if i'm not sleeping that is.
then i went out with jason. he got a new car. let's just say that he's a FUCKING bad driver. this new car that he got is a manual one... and that just emphasizes the fact that he's a lousy driver. i honestly felt like puking cos the car was jerking and jerking so badly!!! urgh. and he's selling his beatle convert!! damn it... ok... this is honestly the last time i'll go out with that dude man... he's weird.
ok. tired. going to rest now... will upload the pics that i took soon!!
Friday, December 03, 2004
well... so much has happened over the past few days that i've got just no time to blog. let's see...
interview results
got the call on wed, around 5+ after waiting the whole day for it... was online with shawn when marny called him, so i knew that marny was calling pple already.
"hey tania, i've not got the best of news... "
at that pt, my heart sank, my dreams shattered. it seemed as if her voice was being drowned out... echoing in the background... sigh... it was really in my hands, and i blew it.
but i'm more pissed than anything cos i was rejected on the basis that i wasn't technical enough. harlow... i'm an econs student. can't u assume i'm technical? anyway, leo asked me all econs questions and i answered them pretty well. i honestly did. and in my opinion, my answers are correct. damn it.
short, balding, irritating man
anyway, now i feel weird going out with alex or bern. it just seems that i don't belong to their life anymore. just seems like i'm tagging along even though i got rejected, i'm outcast, and i'm a loser. damn it. i'm really pretty sad abt this whole thing... sigh
i guess the only good thing that comes out of this is
my trip up to UK...
has been pushed up to 8th Dec. so yes, i'll be flying over there on the 8th of dec. will only come back on the 31st Dec. crap... so long right! haha... well... i'm sure i'll be freezing my ass off where ever i'll be...
the only sad thing is that i won't be able to celebrate my birthday in singapore. yes, my 21st birthday, not spent with family, and not spent with people that love me and care abt me. i'll be spending it with all the sexy french men, in the land of love. i mean... hey, the birthday obviously sucks right. (no pun intended)
... guess i haven't had time to really sort out my feelings abt this whole issue and crap. been nonchalent towards most of it, and all... mostly cos i had to study for the public finance paper today. damn it. so damn freaking boring man. everyone finish ready and i'm the only ass still left with a paper. GRR
anyway, after the paper went to suntec for lunch. had lunch with bern and lynn and this new guy tay. then went out with ther girls, viv, addy and teresa!! gosh, i've not seen the girls in ages man!!
did some shopping, though i didn't buy clothes... but i did buy myself my 21st bday present. yes i did...
i always have a habit of buying an expensive present for myself every year.. and this year, i got myself...
a new digicam!! hee. so happy. i better not get mugged over in uk man. got the pentax optio s40... i got it at a pretty good deal, so really happy abt that! it's of course not as slim and as pretty as the my casio exlim, but it'll do. it's really good value for money man!! happy.
would post pictures of it online, but u know it's rather retarded to take a pic of my cam and post it online right?!! hahaha
okok... anyway, i am awfully tired now. haven't slept well in ages, and got to wake up early tom and send the folks to the airport. yes! freedom!! i'm finally going to have the whole house to myself!!! whoopi!!!
party time, here i come!!!
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
FUCK IT
