Thursday, June 30, 2005
shopping frenzie
so i'm stressed at work... so i need to destressed... and it doesn't help that my office is surrounding by suntec, raffles city, and city link...
so this whole week i've been shopping. and i bought alot of things everyday for the past 4 days! crap!!!
i know i'm abit late to go for the GSS, but hey, i hate crowds, so i'm really buying the leftovers... but anyway, here's my hual:
3 skirts and 1 top from mango
2 skirts and a tube from bysi
2 skirts and a dress from seed
1 skirt from celia loa
shit man... that's like 10 pieces of clothing this week! hahaha...
anyway, there were all REALLY good buys, and besides... i'm celebrating...
i've finally got an offer from my boss, and the pay is something that is REALLY REALLY unexpected! woohoo. so the next agenda on my list is to get that gucci bag and all my platinum credit cards applications set. yippi yay.
as materialistic as i sound... well... i am wat. haha. but honestly, i have alot to be thankful for, and i'm almost certain that this is a blessing from above... cos we all know how bimbo i am right. so yes, thanksgiving!
the only crap thing is that i don't get a holiday! i start work proper immediately after the internship... so that's abit crap cos i already booked my thailand trip... and i need 2 weeks off to do my eyes. but yea, i've already told them abt my plans so they've agreed to give me some time off.
yay
looking forward to signing the contract tom... then i can sleep well over the weekend. yippi yay.
congratulate me, won't u?! =)
Monday, June 27, 2005
monday blues
guess my title says it all huh... but well... today was actually a pretty good day.
after being told i look really really stressed the whole of last week, today he he said, "u're always laughing, it's good, don't stop" yay. made my day!!!
we had lunch later together, iris, him, and he brought his friend along... haha... it was a pretty good lunch session, found out the real reason why guys have nipples. haha... damn funny lor. it was a good day lar...
and plus, ML decided that she shld do the reporting herself and i'll do it as well, and at the end of the day, we compare the results! hahhaa... cool man. i only got as far as generating positions! hahha... my numbers were screwed up... haha... it's honestly not cos it's my fault, it's more like it's cos i used the wrong files...
ok lar, my fault lar, my fault.
so i manage to leave the office at 8, walked to raffles city cos i die die had to do some shopping right. haha. got a top from mango and a skirt from celia loe. the clothes that i buy now adays are all business kind, or very proper in that sense. haha. but the crappy thing is that i don't buy the clothes thinking that it can match other things... i buy it cos i think it's nice.
so then the problem of matching the clothes come in. crap. i'm sticking to the very basic colours for the bottoms to match the top, but it honestly can be so boring!
oh well... anyway, i'm going to sleep really really early today. wanna be fresh tom.
it's a long day... need to at least generate the HY report tom!
Sunday, June 26, 2005
new layout
comments!! changed the thing after fingers itchy... plus, i think the skin quite suited for me now. i'm an OL!!!!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
my phuture
i've had a hard week at work, working 13hr days almost everyday. life's been good, and i guess every job is like that, but it just sucks that i'm over worked and under paid. haha... but yes, i'm trying to learn as much as i can given i can still ride on my current status.
so yes, eric has been really patient and very nice to me over this week... and he's a really nice guy... of course, any guy that doesn't scold me is good right. urgh. he bought dinner at pregos and sent me back after the late night on wed... and he's going to speak to my boss to hint that i need taxi reinbursment. yes. that'll be good man.
so i had to relax last night... went down to phuture after ending work at 2230. got there after midnight and met daren there! i totally haven't thought abt any guy this week, having no time to breathe/eat, i think guys are the least of my worries.
daren was as cute as ever... and VERY naughty and cheeky. haha... but i was just there to have fun... we danced and then he went off to find his other friends... not that i was bothered, cos i was there to have fun anyway.
went to the bar and started drinking... chatted with 2 guys on my left and right... was interesting... cos addy brought wf and rachel was there as well... daren came over later when one of the guys were chatting with me, and he came from behind, and he surprised me with a very very strong grip and kiss.
how passionate.
how naughty...
haha... but we had more drinks and the suddenly the two guys on my left and right just disappeared.
daren was... a very bad boy. hahaha... it was just fun and addy kept on tickling me or jabbing me or whatever... so babby, i'm sorry, u know i still love you!! haha...
ok, going to read up on some stuff... urgh. 3 more weeks left!!!
Saturday, June 18, 2005
past 7 weeks
no talk abt clubbing last night and drinking my sorrows, i decided to stay at home and sleep. i cld not even open my eyes man, i was just so tired from the whole week or work.
the past 7 weeks have been great, and i thank my lucky stars that i was given this opportunity... life as a uni student seems so long ago, and that my career is in a mess. i don't know where i am going, what i am going to do, and who can i trust.
i've only been talking to meg and adrian, and i hope that these two can keep their mouth shut. meg's leaving so that's ok, but adrian's going to stick around a while more... and that's worrying... i think for the next 3 weeks i shld keep my mouth shut, not talk abt all these crap and just wait out... see what the tide brings in.
maybe i shld ride the cow to look for a horse.
i've got another interview with goldman next mon, and as much as i want to prepare for that, i just want to sleep. i am so bloody tired that i can't think straight, or study for that matter. i want to be the prepared yes, and hopefully i will get off my sorry ass and get some work done.
i honestly need a break, a few weeks off to do my lasik, a weekend in bangkok to do some serious damaging shopping and prob 3 days in bali to just relac. i need a break.
i am honestly at the edge of reason.
i wish i cld run into ur arms and cry, and that u'll tell me that everything will be alright. but ...
there's always a but.
Saturday, June 11, 2005
past week in motion
no pics to upload this week, marcus said that i was a picture whore. how nice. but yea, this week has been rather boring or eventful... depends on how i see it.
spent tues and thurs in the gym after work, had a really really good kickboxing class on thurs. that keith is a killer man. urgh. but it was good. help me vent out some anger that i've had stored since tues.
i finally had my goldman pvt banking interview on tues. and believe me, i nearly cried. it was so so so horrible, that i shudder when i think of it, and i'm actually scared to see the pple that interview me every time i pass through the south lobby of ORL. the lady was a super super bitch, and if she ever loses her job at goldman, she can be the new door bitch at velvet or thumper.
so what if she was wearing a ferragamo suit? so what if she had the power to pin me down... she was really MEAN. and i honestly honestly nearly cried. i came back down to the office after the interview and talked to meng, and my eyes were really really watery. sob.
but meng has been nice this whole week. he has provided fantastic eye candy across the credit side, and we have this thing for bumping into each other... like last night while i was waiting for nan at suntec, i was just standing at the lobby and he just happened to walk past. tried asking him out for dinner and velvet later, but he declined. oh well... desire always leads to suffering... i shall keep that in mind.
had dinner at sushi tei with ah qi, eric, nan and jack. the food was really really good and we had quite alot of fun. moved to balas later and then went home to change before going on to velvet.
looking back on last night, i don't think i've ever drank that many lychee martinees in one night, and enjoyed myself at both vlevet and phuture. ALL the guys that are on my B-list were there. jeff, elisha, daren... it was really 'meet the flings' night, when i was going from place to place seeing them hitting on different girls.
even after the martinees, i was still very extremely sober, and i cld really see how the guys were playing. it was funny cos i was being played a year, a month and 2 weeks ago. amazing how things look different when u look at it from an outsider perspective.
i started chatting with this guy that was sitting next to me, and we started analysing jeff's game plan... it was pretty fun. hahaha... that dude's a broker from merrill, and we agreed to have lunch some time next week since our offices are just next to each other.
jeff told me i gave him shit... and that he's pretty scared of me. hahaa.... watever. he's done more damage that he can imagine and i will always remember him and give him a hard time. no pun intended of course.
this weekend is just for me to chill out and refresh before next week. it's my 6th week next week and i'm going to cross train on the equities side. that means doing relatively longer hours and no more social night life for me... or at least dinner plans. crap.
but it is an opportunity for me, to show my abilities, even though i'm not really really interested in equities. but oh well. let's see how that goes.
prob going to get my new phone later. urgh. hopefully i can still trade in this phone. crap.
Monday, June 06, 2005
what can i say? i am happening.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
kat's wedding + attica
i do know that i only get to update my blog every weekend, and even though there are many things i wanna blog abt during the week, i just have no time. and by the time the weekend comes, blogging abt it seems so trival, and well, i'm just so lazy. so then i'll just blog abt weekend events, which seem that i just blog abt clubbing, clubbing and more clubbing.
sat was taken up with kat's wedding. pictures are below, and it was a really really long day. started at like 7am at the bride's place and only ended at 11 with the banquet at trader's hotel. we (the illegal cell) adjured to attica for some more drinks and fun. (too lazy to write abt the wedding, except that i gave JT a really hard time to get the bride)
i was tired, and i was dressed in my graba... (see the pics below). never gone clubbing in a gown before. haha. but it was fun. met ramesh and ken there and this new dude that apparently knows everyone so we cut the queue and got in free. how cool is that.
the night was really really fun. danced abit with ramesh and the girls, really really fun... i asked meng whether he wanted to come but he was at thumper. he actually called me back and talked to me for a while, and then he was like, "hey tania, when did we first meet ar?" i was like ... wat a weird question! apparently, he didn't know that it was tania from the office. not very good. i totally screamed at him, was like, "how many girls give u numbers that u can't remember who they are?!!!"
so much for my infatuation with him. it's over. O-V-E-R. he's a player and i refused to be played. i always seem to fall for the bad ones. crap.
i've been talking to daren for the past week on the phone and msging each other... it was nice at first cos u know how despo army guys are... but come the weekend... didn't even msg me, much less reply my msg! humph. that pissed me off man. not good. not good. was supposed to meet him for coffee today but i refused to go. showed him my princess power.
through yesterday, i was with the girls from cell, and i honestly enjoyed myself. was with a different group that i usually wld be, but it was fun. some girl time. manage to spend some time with dave as well. he was the best man and he looked pretty good in his suit and tie.
i've always had a thing for david, but i'm not sure how he feels abt me. it seems like we're just good friends and that's it. i'm prob not good enough for him. oh well. there are pple out there that are bf material and there are some that are husband material... and dave's a husband material kind of guy. i don't want to screw up anything with him cos my friendship's impt, but u can't always risk manage right.
sigh.
oh, and my results were out this week. i've officially graduated from (a)nus with a B.A in Economics, pass with merit. the results were alright, my econs mods were a let down though. crap crap crap. but it's ok. did enough to maintain my pass with merit, so that's ok. nothing else matters now that i've grad.
as for a perm job, i'm still looking, private banking? fixed income? still thinking, still looking. guess the next 2 years are for me to figure out what i want to do and how can i get there. i'm grateful for everything that has happened, and it's honestly another phase of my life going forward.
just hope that it ain't filled with bastards.
kat and i
formal shot of the jie mei-s (ah yi)
wo men shi sisters!
all the helpers. i think the guys shld be in pink (peach) too
dave and i in the church
just kat and i
deb, rui, me, and manzhi with the bride
table shot
rui and i
dave and i
