Tuesday, February 24, 2004
last week i had 1 midterm and 2 assignments.
this week i have 2 midterm and 2 assignments. gosh. my work load is increasing exponientially. damn it. oh well... anyway, looking at it, i only have 1.5months till the exams come and then it's 4 months of holiday! woohoo! oh well. i've done my CV and my cover letters, but i'm not sure what job i really really want. i've not sent out anything yet, but will do so next week, comfirm. have to lar. it's time i got down to analyising wat i want out of my life, find my direction and see where it leads me. i need to have a direction, an aim, a goal. i can't continue living like a little immature little kid.
i need to take control of my life. damn, i'm going to be 21 soon. damn. that's like adult ready. even though i've argued countless times with my parents, "leave me alone, i know wat i'm doing."... am i really to grow up, to live with real responsibilites? life ain't a bed of roses. it's prob a bed of thorns. real reality is harsh. the world ain't a pretty picture. i need to be able to realise that and grow up.
i guess growing up is painful, but it's an enriching experience. i need to be enriched. i need to be rich. hahaha... still...
it's time for me to grow up...
Saturday, February 21, 2004
it's amazing how much physical torture the body can take. or how much stress the mind can take. or the stretching limit of ur brain. we are indeed wonderfully and creatively made.
the past week i've survived on an average of 3-4 hrs of sleep a day and i'm still funtioning... abet not totally normal. haha... still. at least i'm walking, talking, breathing. i've got so much hw and yet i'm stuck here complaining how much work i have when i cld be spending my time more constructively to clear my work. brillant. haha... oh well.
next week i've got 2 mid terms, one on thurs, one on fri, and an assignment due on fri. damn. and there's teh g12 conference on fri, sat, adn sun. grr... i need my sleep. i need to relax... but i think i'm fairly relaxed... is the glass half empty or half full. perception people. gotta have the right attitude... see, i'm all relax ready... all u need is weed. can't get weed? cough syrup wld do! haha... kidding.
touched my guitar for the first time in a few years. surprisingly, it came naturally to me, all the cords i cld somehow or other remember. amazing. haha... think i'm the next santana? no... i suck man... haha... trying lar trying... can't get my own strumming pattern, plucking's fine, but not all songs can be plucked aye... not not flowers hor. haha. oop. giveme a straw. haha...
alrighty, i'll toll over this and i'll try, try to be a mini mini michelle branch, minus the revealing top and the flabby abs. wait, i think i have the flabby abs. damn. or worst to the worst, if pple hear me and run screaming the other way, i'll just quote mr hung, "i have had no professional training watsever."
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ok,
finally got this thing up... but it ain't running. now i know wat the people in SOC do...everyday programe this and that. ain't it boring. *yawn*
anyway, it's like 1.40am and i'm still up. why?!! cos in the next 2 weeks, i have 4 midterms and 4 assignments. yes, that's right. so i must thank the person for getting me started on this blog thing. hum... it's always a new addition. crap.
alright, i think i better go, feeling guilty for staying here and typing even though i should be studying. hum... my fingers have a life of its own and it doesn't stop typing... hum...
alrighty then. think i'll stop here.
and here...
and here...
*tee hee*
