Saturday, October 28, 2006
(Top, Left to Right) Jing the fairy, Jess the she-devil, vic the v**gin, me the uncreative, Jo the viking and viv the corp's bride.
Old friends, New beginnings
We had a Halloween party rehersal party at Jess's new place last night. The real one is appearantly happening tonight at zouk.
It was good to catch up with old friends, at this new stage in everyone's life. Almost everyone is going to be working now, and can you be believe it, I've been working for a year now. Come next year bonus time, I would have been with the firm for 18mths! How time flies man.
Hung came over late, after a late night of working. Had some extra shit to do cos we both are off next week, hence had to finish later than usual last night. Still, he made the effort to come and spend time with me, though I know the even the idea of crashing on his bed was more appealling.
Am I know - he makes me happy.
We're off to Sydney for the week. We still haven't got the car/hotels settled, but at least I know I got great company. He makes me happy, even though time to time i question myself, it's just because I'm insecure.
I'm looking forward to our new lives ahead, as we grow together more as a couple and start planning for our wedding and marriage.
I'm happy; contented. And as Jess's bf said last night, "We were made for each other"
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Closure
Amazing how much this word means to me now than a week back. It happened so long ago that I thought it didn't bother me anymore, that I got past it and buried it behind. It was good to meet him again last Friday, and we had a nice short chat. It's funny that I'm always alcohol intoxicated when I talk to him... and yet, I can clearly remember snipets of our conversation.
I've been playing back the conversation over and over the whole weekend. As I went to bed waiting for the other to come home, I felt guilty thinking of him while waiting for the other to come home.
Am I different? It seems like he didn't recognise me when he first walked past, either that or he was too shocked to see me.
Has it been 2 years?
He gave me a courtsey kiss & hug and later a big goodbye bear hug. It really felt good to be back in his arms, the same arms that carried me stronly, and the same one that took me away...
But that's all in the past.
He heard I was getting married and asked, "Are you really happy?"
That is the question that I have been asking myself the whole week.
His last words? Same as the previous time, his face I'll never forget.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
When you're gone...
baby it's time to come home...
Hung's off again to Switzerland, where smurfs are originally known as stumphetts. Apparently they are Dutch...
Had a pretty bad week with WT sick on Monday, ML sick on Friday, and Ann is out for 3 weeks. I've been working ridiculous hours, and just barely keeping my head afloat. The new girl is coming along pretty well, so at least I'm pleased about that.
Had a blast with the girls at Zouk yesterday, though by the time I got there Addy had already KO and had to be sent home. No good night kiss from babby! damn! And Jess and Jing played me out, so it was only Teresa and Viv. Had fun though, picked up some random guy who I can't even remember his name now. Oh well.
I had even more fun at Butter Factory before with the DB people. It's been like months/years since I last went out with them! And it was really really fun!
XXX
It's good I came home to my bed and not snuck with the temptation of going off with some random guy just cos he's not here. Cos that would had been wrong. Yes, I'm a morally uptight person even when drunk.
Yes, I know I look ridiculously drunk...
One more week before he comes back...
Just wishing and waiting and hoping and planning...
