Tuesday, March 28, 2006
you know you are heavy when the bus breaks down the minute you step on it.
especially if it goes -crank-crank-puffff*-
you know you're relationship has gone up a level when you find yourselves nonchalent abt buying toilet paper together.
the 24-family pac at that
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Freedom for 2 weeks
It's funny how I've always complained that I do not have enough time for myself, that I want time to do my own things, space to breathe... and yet, I've not exactly ultilised my time the past week.
Hung went back to Paris and Switzerland on Tues and would only be back in 2 weeks time. It's a funny feeling - like I'm pinning for him to come back, and yet, glad that I can stay at home for the weekend.
Can you imagine? I didn't step out of the house today- not at all! This has got to be the first time since I've graduated man. It's amazing how little time I've spent at home. And yet, I've got to study... Been procrestinating since the longest time. I should really get to know my risk concepts more, be more involved in the markets, and read more.
I should be doing something more constructive with my life.
I can just feel the days slipping past, and time wasted just idling, not getting any value add, not thinking, not growing. I'm just growing through the motions at work... I've reached the stagnant stage! *gasp*
On one hand, I want to be challenged, I want to do something more interesting, I want to concentrate on my career, to be something that I can be proud of, to be able to hold my head up high during family reunions, to know that I have more earning power than most of the graduates of my batch.
And yet, I want to settle down, I've found someone that I think is THE one and I want to build something with. I'm not sure how I'll be able to juggle these two tasks. I only have 24 hours in a day and if I spend 15 hours at the office, where am I going to spend time building my family?
Then there comes sacrifice. Which should I choose? I've found someone who loves me so much and wants to settle down with me, and I'm torn between concentrating on my career. Which is more important? Either way, I would regret making either choice. I don't want to look back and think what-could-have-been.
Which is more imporant? Settling down or Building my career?? I don't think I can give 100% to both, and even if I can, I'm not sure how long I'll be able to last before I snap and go on the brink of going over the ledge.
I need a good sleep - maybe when I wake up it'll be over... He'll be back and will hold me in His arms and tell me that everything's going to be alright.
