Sunday, August 29, 2004
i seem to have more fun with a 3 day week than i ever had.
the weekend was packed. really enjoyed myself everday. it's pretty lucky that i cancelled my late night activities on wed and thurs. oh well. at least i stayed at home and did some work. ok, at least i tried.
friday was a pretty packed day. woke up real early to go for training. it's crazy! i think i'm going to die on tues. damn it. die ready. i'm just going to drown at the 50m mark and not going to come back man. that's it. i'm dead.
K.C.
had lunch with kc. even though it's been so long... at least we're friends. i guess that's the only thing i can be thankful for. that we're still friends, it wasn't weird talking to him. we're pretty open and shared quite alot.
it seems like old times. though he looked rather gay in his grey pull over. eyERR.. oh well. at least i can say that he's more open to me now, and i think that we're just meant to be friends. i don't have any ill feelings towards him... history is history. i don't want to lose him again as a friend.
my friend the model @ zouk
went to zouk at night to support fred for his virgin catwalk at zouk. met renyi there for the first time since after the exams. now, that felt weird.
the thing abt renyi is that he behaves that nothing is wrong, but i know him. he's just avoiding me. it's not fair. we're been so close, and i've poured my heart and soul out to him... he has seen my in my weakest moments and have helped me up. and yet... after we've been though all of this... how can he do this to me?
how cld he have hurt me so badly?
"i don't want to hurt u, i don't want to make u cry"
even though he tries to act normal, i guess we're just civil. we're poliet to the extent that it's ridiculous. i can't say that it's entirely cos of his gf... but come on. things cld have been different.
"i thought you knew. we were playing with fire and it was just a competition to see who wld get burnt first"
prick.
anyway, fred was damn gay. but the models were damn gd looking man. slurp. i look at all the girls and i wonder whether i'll ever get down to that size? it's ridiculous. my goal for 2005? to be that hot ang moh... haha... yea right. in my dreams man... she was hot. i might have had a slight erection. hahahaha...
phuture was too young man. i felt like someone's mother there. was bumped from the back by a couple of guys that looked like they were 18. *phu*...
walked luyi out to the taxi stand and i saw him.
HE was with a girl. i didn't get a look at the girl, but i looked away when i saw him. our eyes met but i looked away... he said hi. well..........
it was weird. i think he was stunned. i was stunned. but then again, that was his flavour of the week/day/night? how cld i have stooped to his level? i was dumb. maybe i shld dye my hair blond.
but jeff and alex are really brothers in every sense of the word man. i feel disgusted by the way he goes around flirting with other people but then again, i prob fall in his category as well. i don't think it's right that he goes around with other women.
wat has the world come to? i told bern that it wasn't fair and if all the guys are like that on the face of the earth... no way am i ever going to get married man. no way.
i'm not going to let my hubby go out and have a guys night out man. bull shit. they'll just all be at velvet or tian ah men. yikes.
bern sent me home as usual and we spent some quality alone time in the cab back. the times that it's just the two of us are really sweet, but that's only when we're alone.
Pan Pacific
we got a suite! damn it, i've never ever stayed in a suite before!!!
it was cool. it was like engyee's birthday cum jerry's farewell. jerry brought his ice wine. slurp. that was nice man.
basically we just sat around drinking and drinking and drinking.
it only got interesting when all of us were tipsy and started playing games. but still... there was "truth or drink"
the moment of truth
some choose to drink, some tried to hold out until they cldn't drink any more and had to tell the truth.
i guess i ain't that bad!!! hahahaha...
but i cld see jerry and soon ann doing some mental calculation on my age. haha... and there were a few eyebrows raised definitely.
but i wasn't that off. just that i was really tired from drinking and partying at velvet the night before.
i think i shld give alcohol a miss for the next few weeks. gotta clear my face. my pimples are all coming out man. urgh.
but the worst was that i had to say jerry to one of the answers. aiyoh..... paiseh man. i don't 'know whether they took it seriously or anything. but i'm thinking that i don't think any thing can work out. it's just that we're very different and yet, quite similiar.
perhaps i'm too immature. maybe. he's 26 and i'm 21. he's been sailing and has seen half the world. i've seen er JB? haha... oh well. i think it's just fun to hang out with them.
how?
think i shld buck up and start studying! damn! haha... shit. better get down to some gd work man.
