Monday, August 23, 2004
has it been that long?
5 yrs since i've met u, 2 yrs living our own lives in diff continents, 3 yrs since we first knew each other, 2 yrs since it ended... and last night as we talked, i felt the walls come down.
i confided in him. i had to. he was the only one who knew me enough to help me.
what was wrong with me? he was the only one that had an answer for me.
we chated on how he failed his driving first. cocky bugger thinks he can drive. wooHO. so mostly i had to consol him.
then it came to it. it felt so hard to open my mouth the say the words, to ask for a listening ear, a crying shoulder and to just ask him to hold my hand and pull me up.
but he listened. and as he promised 2 yrs ago, "no matter wat, whoever bullies you, i'll be there. we're friends for life"
maybe i sounded pathetic and he listened, but i didn't care.
things were like they were b4 we got together.
he mostly updated me on his love life. i did feel a pinch of jealousy, but hey, it's been 2 yrs! just for old times sake i guess.
and though i don't approve of the things that he does now, wat matters is that he didn't disappear this time. he did stay. albeit far away, but still... stayed.
we're going out this week. i've yet to decide a day. he has to fit into my scheldue and not the other way around. i guess it'll be good to see him, though old feelings might come back.
and i'm driving. hahaha. was then, still am.
is he worth the friendship? after wat he did i shld have shot him down years ago. after wat he did twice, i shld have kicked myself in the head. stupid tania.
not too bright eh.
but alas, SOL was enlightening. learnt alot. didn't know that DY was attached man. damn it! i think i shld assume that everyone is attached unless proven and not the other way around. maybe that wld be a better strategy. haha.
tired. didn't do jack shit for the past 4 days! damn a 3 day week. urgh.
