Wednesday, August 18, 2004
maybe 3 days of school ain't the best of ideas.
but the thought of having an extended weekend is enough to keep me on cloud 9. haha.
just doing my tutorial and my readings for international econs. damn, i've forgotten everything that i'm supposed to know. oh shit. gotta buck up. no more holiday mood.
maybe the extended weekend is a double edge sword. because i know i have 4 days to do my work, i will procrestinate and not do them! oh no... haha... well...
ok, on more light hearted things..
the new batch of freshies are... not bad... got a lot of cai!! haha... i can just sit in the canteen and look at all the cute guys that are well... fresh! haha...
and there are ALOT of angmohs exchange students. and they are all, and i mean ALL *slurp* material. i met one the other day and i must say that he looks like brad pitt. very nice.
but then again...
was out with addy and alvan yesterday and we sat at starbucks talking... alvan told me that it's almost been 2 yrs since i've been attached.
has it been that long?
why not i ask myself?
maybe cos i'm concentrating on my studies, and my wld be career.
according to the both of them, i'm picky, choosy, and very fussy.
but am i?
i can't help it if i have standards set for myself and i'm not going to comprimise anything below that. wat's the pt if i bend my expections and have exceptions for certain pple... like that i'll be going out with every tom dick and harry.
but then again, i might just shoot myself in my leg and grow old with 11 cats.
alvan said that i only have interest in guys that are either rich or goodlooking. now, that's a statement that i resent.
that statement not only sounds materialistic, but it reflects what kind of character i am. i can't help it if it was a coincidence that ALL the guys that i've been out with are either good looking or rich.
hey, i've been out with guys that are neither. and i have had romantic feelings for those kind as well. so there u go, i ain't a material girl.
so this comes back to the question on y i'm SBC. simply cos i'm Single By Choice.
who needs someone to hound u, to answer to?
as it is, i have enough on my hands. i have so many responsibilites and i have to answer to so many people. i don't need another psychotic, possive bf to stress me out futher.
and yet, there are times when i'm just so sad or simply just europhic that i wanna share these feelings with someone. it's only at night, after i turn off my lights, and lie on bed reflecting on the day that has passed or my life in general, i miss the times when i had another half.
i guess it's a 2 way street, a give and take.
yes, i'm single by choice. i know that there is someone out there just perfectly designed for me. and there's a part of him that's missing as well, and only i can fill that void.
and since that's my belief, why comprimise and settle for anything less? or waste my time on other guys when i know that nothing gd or concrete can come out of a passing r/ship or a fling...
i shall be patient.
the right one will come along.
either that or... anyone got lobang for cats?
