Tuesday, August 24, 2004
i can't believe the spade of bad luck i'm going through.
feeling in the dumps lately and this has to happen today.
damn it.
the day wasn't gd. it started off bad. like REAL bad.
and then this.
and just after a few months.
yes, i, the smartass,
rammed...
the car into a wall.
D'OH!!
URGH. i'm so super pissed at myself that it's not even funny.
i feel like giving up.
i'm this close to throwing in my towel. not to renouce you, but to just slide back.
where have u been? where were you? why have u left me?
i can't feel you, i can't hear you, i can't see you.
wat keeps me going is that i have people cheering me on, pple's expectations that i can't let down further.
my back is turned 90 degrees. i'm this close to turning 180, walking in the opposite direction away from u.
my life was fine before i met you, nothing's really changed since i met you, so i know i'll be fine w/o you.
who's going to fill the void then?
but if i can't even feel u now, there's a void now. so there's no diff whether i turn away.
i'm still deciding.
i'll send u and email. u're high tec right.
