Saturday, August 21, 2004
has time ever stopped?
it seems like there's only one person in your focus, only one person's voice that drowns out the rest.
the background fades into oblivious, and ur attention is drawn to the person standing beside you.
u blush, u try to hide it with playful shyness. but there's no denying that u're growing hot.
thank god for dim lighting.
you try to fish out more information, but there's none. you feel like digging a hole and hiding for your stupidity.
so much racing through your brain, u're more conscious of the words to say and the things u do.
and then reality hits.
it's impossible. there ain't no way this can work out.
wat ever happened is history. i'm just another girl.
and that sucks.
i called the only person that cld make me feel better. but he didn't pick up. i'm not sure for watever reason. but i know one thing for certain.
it hurts.
it feels like a hundred trucks have ran over my body, and that i'm slowly being eaten away from the inside out.
he turned and waved as he walks out of the club.
i'm not sure if i hid the surprised expression on my face.
time stopped.
my heart came crashing at the floor at free fall speed. it hits the floor with a clash that reverberated throughout my head - it sent tremours throughout my body.
it's gone. all's lost.
there's only one loser.
i've lost the most important thing. my heart has smashed in a million pieces, super glue can't help anything.
i'm lost. i truely am.
i feel like i lost a battle. i can't fight anymore. i give up.
i lost.
