Sunday, January 23, 2005
i forgot how a breakup feels like.
the words get stuck inside ur throat, and u just feel helpless. the words u imagined saying over and over in ur head just can't materialise into words.
and that's how i felt yesterday.
i sat there, and He was just sitting there quiet... listening to wat i have to say. when i finished saying what ever i cld in between sobs, He turned his back and walked away.
we are on a break. i will not go to church or cell from today onwards until i can decide what i want to do with my life, set my piorities straight and settle this in my life.
i can't feel you, how can there be no feelings involved when we are in a relationship?! it's not my right anymroe, it's my responsibility?! what kind of cock is that.
it is my right. God gave me a right to choose, and this is my choice.
i hate you. i hate the way u left me when i needed u most. i hate the way u turn silent when i cry out to u. i hate the way people around me do not understand me at all.
renounced faith?
atang datang
