Friday, October 14, 2005
New address
new address, time to start anew. some things i just wished i never started, others, even though i know i'm struggling through right now, will definately shap my character and make me a better person at the end of it.
i guess if we all knew how life turned out, there wldn't be any excitment in that will there? and, have you even wondered if you knew how you wld end up in the end, would u still make the same choices you would have without explicitly knowing the consequences?
there are some things that i do, even though i know the consequences aren't pretty. and there are others that i just want to test waters and others that i simply throw caution to the wind and want to tempt fate. oh well. i need the excitment huh.
what if we all had a crystal ball and could watch our life unfold before us like a movie, would we be inclined to lead our lives the same way? and wld we subconciously remind ourselves of the dire outcome everytime we made a decision? If i knew for example, that giving into temptation and eating that tub of ice cream wld make me wear size 30 jeans instead of 28... wld i still go for that 15 min of instant pleasure, only to be worn like a medal on my hips later on?
oh, the choices.
but then again, what's life without choice? given that i don't really have the freedom of speech, at least i am free to do what i want. i'm free to do what i want, but wld i do it? doing something if i choose to is different compared to doing something cos i'm compelled to. at least i'm under the illusion that i chose this road...
...even though the path was already laid out in front of me.
