Monday, October 03, 2005
shoulder to cry on
it's been a long time since i cried in front of anyone. you took me in your arms and let me cry... u sat there silently with me, held me in ur arms and just waited for me to compose myself again.
yes, u wipped away my tears, but u were the one that made me cry. have u thought of that? isn't it ironic that only love could inflict pain that doesn't go away?
i'm starting to fall for u... and it scares me. as i lay there with u next to me, i had a flash back... i was brought back to a relationship i had eons ago... and suddenly, i was re-living that relationship. the feelings were so similiar. the i-should-know better feeling that i pushed to the back of my head. that nagging feeling that everything is not alright keeps haunting me.
what shld i do? shall i just not think so much and just see how it goes? or shld i stop it before i get hurt again? shld i even harp on that ray of hope? living an illusion that things might work out for real this time? fooling myself that he's serious and that he really loves me? that he's not just setting up a nomadic trail of broken hearts in every region that he has worked in, starting with the mrs and kids back in paris.
i can feel a heart break coming up... now just wat shall i do abt it?
