Saturday, April 23, 2005
comforting myself
isn't it just human to:
-just shrug something bad that happens? just telling urself that it's bad luck, xuay, or just not ur day?
- how abt rationalising ur mistakes and blunders to make yourself seem more susceptable to failure.
-how u always put the blame on circumstances rather than personal faults.
-remember only the good for the pple that you like and can only remember the bad of someone that u don't?
-believe that the person u love can do no wrong
-think abt "it can't be me", because if u did, the expectation level is there and you absolutely cannot take the disappointment if it just wasn't u.
i cannot expect anything. i cannot go through this all over again. this uncertainty is killing me, and i just want to know who is she?
who succeeded when i failed? who won the war when i won the battle?
am i willing to go through this all over again? i don't even want to consider that cos that wld mean that i've already considered she to be me.
i don't know if u read this... but if u do, and the promises in your blog are mine, then call me, email me, watever... let me know, then i'll consider.
just to let u know, i cannot be broken again.
