Saturday, March 20, 2004
wah kaoZ, that was the longest time i ever took home from the club. crazy. luckily i wasn't in a hurry to get home or need to pee or something man.
pop was driving really fast out of the club, and mummy told him to slow down, like crazy ar, drive so fast. so pop gui lan now lar... he drove really slow. u can't imagine how FREAKING slow he drove ok. it was crawling on the left lane ok. REALLY. wtf. i took a look at the meter and it was 40km/h. WTF. i drove faster when i was learning. pls, if i drove like him, i wld have failed my driving for road hogging ok. wth.
so now everyone's pissed at everyone else. alex at mummy, pop at mum, mum at pop. me? i was pissed at the whole world already the whole week, so i think today's my break day. besides, i had a fantastic church service. that perked my day.
arrived at church office an hour late. damn it. but had school so bo pian. and i was rushing my macro tutorial too. haha. everyone siam 20cents today. nobody let him copied man. felt bad too cos i was copying addy's work, but hey, at least i did some of it ok. i know i shld have started the tutorial earlier rather than the night b4, but i had other things more pressing. sigh. but i tried ok. last night really studied till i peng ok. sigh. going to be like that for another few weeks. but it's ok, i know i can do it cos my God's with me. yes!
so far this has been the nicest time working in the office. serene came over to talk to me abt working life and how i can never comprimise God. i am thankful, grateful and i know that i am very blessed. after meeting the rest of the interns yesterday, it was truely a miracle that i got in. really. it wasn't by my effort, but through God. i give it up to God. honestly. serene said that God gives and God takes away. i know it's true, but i hope that like Abraham, i can give up issac, give him to God. really hope i can, and i'll never comprimise my piorities. i see the blessings that God has blessed not only serene, but the others in cell as well. truely God is doing a great work and i'm glad that i can be a small part of it.
during service, pastor shared that during the last weekend encounter, that when the whole group of them prayed, they felt God's presence's so strongly. and when they opened their eyes, all of them had gold dust on their hands!! awsome! God has manifested himself from the intangible to the tangible to not only touch those present but also to affirm and strengthened those that already believe in Him. Amen! we serve a good God.
we had a guest speaker, pastor something that was in charge of the fever21 movement. and his message spoke to me. he said that God is working in wonderous ways and opening doors, giving opportunities and opening doors that we never felt possible. and yes, how true! on tues, renyi suddenly talked to me abt his beliefs in christianity. and being so close to him, i found it akward to share the gospel with him, but truely, he initiated the conversation and all. i was able to share my little testimony with him and i hope that he will get to know Jesus as not only his saviour and Lord, but also as a friend!
and just before going to church today, when i was sitting in the canteen with the whole gang, alvan just asked me, "tan ah, why are u a christian ah?" woah. this was a topic that we never approached, and i know i felt it hard to open my mouth to them. but here was alvan, after 2 yrs of knowing me, asking me to share with him. AWSOME! God has answered my prayers, giving my the opportunity to share with him, and even though it was only sharing, i now know he's open and this is a small step to something bigger. i can feel it. God is stiring in me a passion. i don't have passion to reach out to the PRCs, to strangers, but wat i have is the passion to reach out to people that matter to me, the people that i care abt! yes, i want to see them saved, serve the same Lord as me and find the peace and everlsating life that i have in Jesus. i claim the promises that the Lord has promised me, and i proclaim that his kingdom come!!
it's amazing! God works in wonderous ways. and the pastor also said that this is not the time to slack, to bucker up our courage to open our mouths to just spread the gospel cos we will be amazed of the reaction that we might receive! why limit God when He is the almighty that cannot to put in a box?! God is infinite, so don't say anything is impossible, cos WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!! AMEN!!
i am going to ask renyi to come with me for service this sat, and i am going to share with alvan this week. i will continue to pray for their openness and that the Lord will touch them. my aim is not to convert them into one of those city harvest believes, but wat i am praying for is a touch from God, to at least let them know that there is a God and His presence is here.
i believe, i claim and i pray that the Lord's will be done, in my life and those that surround me!!
