phuture + office BBQ + past week

i realised that there's no way i can update my blog as frequent as i used to when i was in school. and i think i set a record for the number of entries in one day during the exam period. haha. oh well. but yea, work's been well... work, and the last time i want to do when i get home is to type.

and after working, i realised that weekends are really really impt. these 2 precious days are spent catching up with family and friends. i try to have sat dinner and spend some time at home on sunday to aplease the matriach. but i do enjoy spending time at home. i think that the less time i have to spend at home, the more time i want to spend at home. ironic huh? well, i am a complex girl.

and since there's only so much time i can spend at dinner, and after my parents are asleep, i'm pretty much free to do what ever i want... hey, ultilizing the 48 weekend hours is an art ok. and i'm still perfecting it.

so i went down to phuture on fri night, in my frutile attempt to find elisha again. he wasn't there but nmind... i had fun with the girls, and since my card was working this time, i had massive amt of drinks man. that made up for the lack of guys, or cute guys. haha.

i was wearing my new fcuk top. and i must admit, it's abit low, but i actually altered it already ok! i was feeling somewhat self concious when i was walking out to take a cab, or when i was having supper with the guys. but as long as i was in zouk clubbing, i thought it was appropriate dressing. haha.

the music was generally pretty good, but the guys? yucks. i was dancing with a few of addy's friends but my eyes were always roaming. haha... need new challenages man. i caught view of this pretty cute guy, but i was dancing with one of addy's friends and i didn't know how to go over and dance with him.

i enlisted the help of addy to help me ask whether he was interested in dancing with me, and told her to ask him to come over. i guess since i had a guy drapped over my waist, he didn't want to risk getting punched in the face. haha. but he was cute, and a VERY good dancer. really! he was very respectful, unlike the previous ski cap man or mr urban male, and we did have a nice chat inbetween the loud music.

and this time, he asked for my number even before the last dance, even before i had to remind myself to get his number. so yay. so i've got a new sms buddy now, daren, (with one r)

i met one of my colleagues, wt, at zouk, and that was bad. firstly, i was wearing my super low see through fcuk top as mentioned above, secondly, he was pretty pissed. he was touching me all over, trying to push himself all over me and stuff. that was bad man. how do u reject someone that u're going to be working with for the next few weeks without offending him. it was pretty bad cos he was quite persistant, and i basically pushed his hand away over and over again. sigh. i was pretty glad that he just disappeared suddenly, cos i don't think i wld have been able to fend him off for long.

so that was friday night... sat had the sgx trading session and then the bbq later at my boss's place. the sgx trading session gave me a chance to get closer to meng. i obviously didn't want to partner wt cos of the previous night, and thelma was partnering the other dude from bcp, so that left me with meng. very good.

nice quality time.

i think i hit him so much that he's pretty scared of me now. haha... but it was nice to spend time with him, sitting close and just doing something together. it was interesting. and his voice!! omg. i just want to drool man.

so after the sgx training we went for the bbq. my boss stays at dreycott dr, so that's like near american club. and it's a penthouse man. niceeeee. there is a rooftop garden, a jacuzzi and all. very very nice. very nice for entertaining, and i'm sure it's a perfect bachelor dream pad.

had time out to talk to diff people at the bbq, but mostly i stuck with meng, meg, eric, harry... i don't really get to talk to eric and meng at work, so i guess it's good that there's some time outside work to just mingle.

i had some one-on-one time with meng, and it was pretty nice. it's like everyone was talking and the music in the background and the blue lighting from the jacuzzi really set the mood. i felt like everything just disappeared and it was just him and me on the 18th floor penthouse, overlooking the orchard road skyline. it was beautiful man.

he told me some stuff which were flattering, but it came across very honestly, like he really meant it. and i really really love his dimples. i can't remember whether i told him that, cos i'm starting to recall telling someone abt his dimples. hum....

he told me that i was aggresive, but he thinks compared to iris, she's more aggressive. i asked him whether that was a good thing, and he said that he thinks it is, cos i know when to be aggresive, and other times, i withdraw and hold back. i'm not sure what to make of that though.

everyone was just drinking and drinking and getting sloshed, but i thought that that was damn retarded. these guys are my prospective employers, why in the world wld i want to be drunk in front of them? iris was just drinking and downing shots and stuff, good lar, show she hero lar... in the end wat happened? wanna puke, wanna go home, and who has to take care of her? me. basket.

i realised what my mistake was at db. i didn't control myself when i went out with the guys, and that was my downfall i think. an impression is always important, and i want to leave a good one where ever i go. it's only when i am with my friends or with family, that i can truely be who i am, without any mask, just baring the real me.

so let's hope that things will go well for me, and that i'll have something to make of myself.

i am going out later for kat's high tea. she's getting married on sat, so this is like her hen party. nice nice nice. it's amazing that time passes so fast that it's already her wedding!

guess i have to be contented with updated on a weekly basis now... i'm always almost free for dinner though, juz call me out!

tania @ 10:45 AM | |