Friday, May 20, 2005
long weekend
i always wondered whether pple actually read my blog... and i'm really surprised that my ticket number is actually growing pretty fast... just hope it's not some idiot who just keeps hitting the refresh button. haha
the past week has been good. time really flies by so fast it's amazing. the minutes seem to tick away at work during the afternoons cos i do nothing, but the week just flashed across like that. in retrospect, that's how it is in general right... we nit pick at the small minute things, when we miss the big picture all together.
oh well.
i guess one thing that i've learnt at this internship and the previous one is that, you always have to make the most of wat u have. i cld be like the other interns, sitting there and just watching the clock tick past, making coffee in the pantry. coming in at 8.59am and leaving at 6.01pm. i want to make every single second count. i want to learn new things, i want to help people, contribute to the organisation.
and if all else fails, then i shld at least build up relationships. w/o sounding ego, i think i have pretty good PR skills, and i've been using that to my advantage these past 2 weeks. i need to build up my contacts and try to put myself out there to meet as many people as possible.
i'm all set on graduating and moving on with the next phase of my life, that the thought of actually failing one module has never crossed my mind until the bus ride home today. what if?! the nagging thought of actually having to stay in school for another year because of one stupid careless oversight, really scares me.
what if?
i haven't had much time to think abt what i want to do in my life. like really do. the minute i finished my exams, i started this internship, and i hadn't really put good thought into what i want to do.
what do i want to do?
i don't think i'll be a good risk analyst. i know myself, and that i am not that analytic, or rather, not analytical enough to study/understand risk. sigh. i think i'm more inclined to do sales cos of my easy going nature.
but i am not giving up. and i'm definitely not underestimating myself. i know that if i put my heart and mind into it, i can and will be able to do well. but the learning curve wld just be steeper and the climb will just be harder.
so will success taste sweeter?
i am going for an equity research position at goldman on tues. i'm not sure what they are offering, but i want to see what they offer, and of course, what i can offer them.
maybe this is my chance, my break. i trust that God has a plan and He has the best. so yea, leave it to him. watever will be, will be.
work's not that stressed, but i'm going to velvet later to let off some steam. want to meet up with some friends to just dance and chill.
life is good man.
