Friday, February 25, 2005
ubs later at 2.15pm. shawn called and said that they actually called around a 100 over to take the numerical test man. shit. and the most that they're going to employ? 5?! 10?!! so that's like wat, a 10% survival chance?
sigh.
went out with jt last night. we sat at kap macs and just talked. it was nice of him to sit down and talk to me after how much kc bugs him. and i know how much that ass hole can bug someone.
sigh
what am i going to do?! i only have one option, and that's my only option. but is it right?! i don't want to think abt it until next week... it's abit jumping the gun here, i mean, i don't even have anything right now. panic for wat right.
ubs today, barclays on sat, 2 diff departments for credit suisse on tues.
if everything goes well, i shld have an offer by next week.
but what's the pt of thinking abt these things when it's not happening yet right? why make plan A and plan B in case of this, and in case of that?!
i know i only have one choice, but i'll feel horrid abt it. how can i do it?! have i become so cold and heartless? and it doesn't help that i'm all alone in this, no one is there to tell me which to choose, which path to take in life.
this is life changing. it's a whole new phase of my life. what shall i do?! research at ubs? credit risk at credit suisse? general ops at barclays?
but nothing is comfirmed yet, i just wished that he was here with me, telling me that everything will be ok and things will work out for the best. but then again, he's scared.
he's freaking out worst than me, and since it's my life, i don't understand why he's so freaked out abt.
help. i just want this week to be over.
