Monday, February 21, 2005
today was the first time we hugged. not that it was anything romantic, but it was ... a pleasent surprise.
i went over to watch the highly antiscipated movie of the year, the reprise of 'the sunshine tans'... haha... they are indeed a very harmonious family man... hahah... really a joy.
saw how dave changed throughout the years and i must say it's remarkable, unlike jon or mike... but his features have become more and more defined, and in a manly kind of way... haha... the guai boy-next-door kinda look
he's too nice for me.
it wasn't right 8 yrs ago, it's still not the right time now.
anyway, i stretched out my hand to wish him all the best, and he stretched out 2 hands instead.. i was really surprised man...
i must say that i've hung out more with him this time round than any other time... i guess the lack of time, or the fact that time is limited forces us to call each other and pop by. we finally played that long over-due table tennis match!! haha
he has always been someone that i looked up to, someone that i know i can call and talk to abt personal stuff and he wld never be judgemental. he wld give me unbiased advice, and i know it's not of the world.
so came the dilema when i was deciding whether to see him off at the airport tonight. i was going to take the car, but then pop wanted to use it, and i had to have dinner at home cos mummy cooked a pretty good dinner. so the timing was off...
all throughout dinner i sat there and looked at the clock, mentally calculating in my head whether i cld make it if i rushed down in a cab... and i felt guilty, like he was hoping that i'll turn up to send him off. albeit a little channel-8 drama-ish
in the end, dinner dragged too long, and i was too full to move anyhows.
sigh, so he left, won't be back till june. but hey, that's a really short while if u think of it... cos i wld have graduated by then.
we are on different paths and work on different timings.
it can't work out... for now at least.
