Tuesday, June 01, 2004
the pimple's better.
getting there. getting there. and josephine is FOREVER on leave. damn it. why?!!! my eyebrows are RIDICULOUSLY out of shape it's funny. haha... oh well... nmind, will go down tom to do it.
brought nan and laura to HV to try the katong laksa. they said that they like it. yay... and then i met pastor there. so amazing eh?!!
i'm starting to think what does God want out of me. where does he want me to go?! what does he want me to do?! sigh. i really dunno. and i believe that my walk with God ain't good, but at least i try. at least i know i'm on my way to something right?! sigh. where does He want me to go? sigh... sometimes i wished things cld be simpler. like God could blatantly tell me things, like write it out in stone or have a booming voice over or something. but then... what kind of walk would that be? it'll be more of dictation right?
if i want to find out more, i have to seek. and in this, i will lean closer and learn more yea? this is the building of a relationship. the desire to know, to seek, that's the difference in Christianity. the more u want to know God, the plans that He has for u, the closer u have to draw to Him. so i guess that's another reason why He doesn't just hand out His mighty plans for us. and i suppose that there's the element of free will in that stuff as well. but i'm sure He already knows what we would choose right... so i guess... sigh...
sometimes i wished i had a crystal ball. that would make things easier. or a magic 8 ball... hum... but at least i got a direct line to heaven. how cool's that?!
oh, sms-ed kc today. asked him out for dinner. hum... and he replied back some stuff and then he accidentally replied me this msg, "dude...we need to talk. ive been doin some serious thinkin the part few days.. can i call u later at work..?"
wah kaoz! wat kind of msg is that? sounds like a breakup sms man!! something i heard from him before and something i heard from others before and something i've said to others as well. wah... haha... got me thinking abt him for a while... but i don't think i shld lar... was thinking how long ago things happened. sigh... why. why. why.
i'm thinking abt jerry... sigh... grin. and he just said that he wanted to volenteer to do tuition. amazing right?!!! wah kaoz!!! he amazes me man!! i like............
