Tuesday, April 13, 2004
yesterday's m&o paper:
i think the paper was generally harder than the previuos years. so much for powering through the lecture notes, text, and past year papers with hua hui the day b4. come to think we were so confident. grr. there was nothing that we prepared came out. how? crap. it wasn't that good considering i didn't finish question 1. didn't even know wat the cock they were asking. damn. then the other 2 questions i copied from dishan's tutorial notes. lucky i loked through them in the morning man. ouch. prediction? b+? anything less than that i'll be disappointed lar. on the fact that our project got A and all. crap lar. maybe i shld be more realistic. hum... ok, anything less than a B i'll be sad lar. damn it.
came out of the paper sulking and hh kept on calling me a duck cos of my pouted lips. hiyar, watever lar. went yih to drink something and relac before going home and start on financial. must say that i'm starting to enjoy his company even though he's abit embrassing to be around with sometimes. or rather most of the time. hiyar. guess i need someone there for me too lar, so i guess the both of us talking to each other mutually benefits us. he'll calll me b4 he slept on sun and mon to wish me good night. awah.... (i can hear albin ready to laugh)
today's financial paper:
i thought it was alright lar. if u did the past year papers and understood everything in the lectures and tutorials, it's a very direct paper. the thing is, i did! i really was laughing at the questions man. then i was so worried that everyone can do also, so that makes getting an A even harder. damn it. BUT, coming out of the paper, i checked my answers and found that i screwed the black scholes one. DAMN IT. 7marks man. that wld be my "break it or make it" marks man. if i don't get my A i'll kill myself man. come on, THEY GAVE THE FREAKING FORMULA. wah kaoZ. and like that i still can get wrong. wtf....
this was the module that i prepared first for. the one that i knew that i cld make it. the one that i did well for midterm, and CA. if i don't get my A... i'll scream man.
hh says i shld have realistic goals. that way i won't be disappointed in the end. but then... wat's the pt of setting realistic goals? i might as well set high goals and aim high rather than set goals that i know that i'll achieve in the end RIGHT?! but A is realistic? i think so. i don't think i'm that dumb. come on, i'll been acing exams my whole life until the As. i can't be that stupid right. if i put in the effort. shld be can lar.
so yes, i shall go take a bath now, and prepare for econometrics tom. that one not really confident, but i think shld at least get a C+? but that will still suck lar. wait...let me pump my effort up... shall go at 5pm and bathe. talking to ren now abt his gf. apparently her parents don't approve.
hum... i hate relationships.
