i have finished ALL my m&o lectures. WOOHOO.

i honestly think that btw my tuition kids and david wan's english, my english is going down the drain. i caught myself today AGAIN in another grammartical mistake. damn it. i need to speak the queen's english. eyerr...

anyway, slept at 6am. watched another lecture after putting down the phone AND was rudely awaken at 9.30 by pop. apparently i had to go to the temple for qingmin. crap. i hate doing that. so i pulled myself out of bed, didn't bothered with the contacts, changed into rather short shorts and a polo tee. damn i wanted to wear a spag top but i think pop wld have flipped seeing too much skin. urgh. but hey, it's damn hot in there man.

dropped alex off at tuition (lucky ass) and then we all went down. apparently mama moved house AGAIN! aiyoh. no more at chinatown there, but at geylang lor 8. wah kaoz. wat a place to be resting eternally man. anyway, i knew EXACTLY where it was, it's opp. the tau hui store, but i didn't wanna say anything in the car cos i wanted to sleep. crap, i'm forever the one designated to be the "navigator". sorry dude, navigator didn't have enough sleep. too tired.

so when i opened my eyes...wat did i see... i was parked in the carpark of hotel 81 orchid. hahah... one place that i ain't wanna wake up in man. oh well... walked out onto the streets and i immediately knew where i was. luyi and i walked here the last time she was back. was just interested to see the geylang nightlife. haha... recognised the building where there were a row of china girls just waiting to be picked up. eyerr... then i remember guys looking at luyi and i funnily. haha... fred and renyi both took us apart and held onto our hands to "protect" us. haha. oh well... nmind...

SO ANYWAY... the temple. aiyoh. it was smoky, as usual... just sat by the window and tried to breathe in fresher air. it's relative anyway. but the only thing that i considered worthwhile was.. haha... ALL of my relatives said i lost weight!!! hahahah... and one even said i grew taller. hahah... feeling abit guilty now cos i JUST chowed down cha siew noodles... but! hey, i do run 3x a week even though i'm talking a 2 week sabadical cos of the exams. nmind, come the 21st. i'll be a running gym freak. yay.

looking at the alters and the number of erns in the place, i really wonder whether this is wat life is abt? wat's the pt of honouring someone when she's passed on, when u never really bothered abt her when she was alive? ok, i MEAN... well... mama passed away when i was pretty small, so i can't really remember how good her children treated her, but... yea, wat's the pt of honouring the dead? it's better to treat them gd when they're alive right. so yes, i shall treat my parents better. hold my bitting tongue and give in more.

and then comes the question of the after life. well, i believe that i'll be in heaven with Jesus, sitting on His left hand side, abit far away though. but still... i know i'll be in Heaven cos that's wat i believe. and i've questioned myself countless times what if i made the wrong decision... wat if, the jews were correct? what if christianity is all a hoax. but the testimony of wat God has done in MY life stands out. it has affirmed my faith and seen me through my struggles and obsticles. the miricles that i've seen God doing in MY life and in MY friends lives leave me with NO choice than to believe that there is some higher being, and that this path that i've choosen to walk down is the true one.

i can't wait to watch the passion. cindy went for the preview and she was giving out posters during service. but then there wasn't enough so liz said she'll give me hers. yes. hahah... so now there's a poster of it on my wall, and everytime i look up from my bks, i see it. hum... that's good i guess...

anyway, penny called me now. kinda slamming me for not going for cell tom. crap. ok, shall go entertain her.

then i NEED to bathe. i still smell of joss stick. eyerr

tania @ 11:13 PM | |