Monday, November 15, 2004
it seemed so different watching the show today.
i wished i was sitting beside u... 2 years ago, this was one of our "first dates". u even met my dad... i can still remember meeting at clementi mrt and going there together.
yes, back to the days of no license.
we looked around the cars and u gave me an insightful commentary on all the cars that we walked passed. this was something that i knew u knew wat u were talking abt... and it seemed like the roles were reversed. you teaching me.
we had a really nice time then... i remember that we enjoyed each other silence when we had nothing to talk abt. it wasn't akward... it was the bashful shyness that made it memorable. yes, we were in love.
ok, maybe not in love, but in like?
yes... so going to the motor show today brought back all these memories.
how i wish u cld still be here with me, telling me new stories on all the new cars on the mkt... or hold my hand as i watch the stunt show to calm my nerves.
it's weird how i live in the past. when i'm out shopping, i look at something and i think of u. like, "this is soooo you". will i ever forget u?
will i ever remember how u let me down?
it's amazing how one can be so selective in memory huh. for some, i rather remember the good than the bad. for others, i can only remember the bad. how hyprocritical huh.
but yes, even though you have moved on, i have moved on, there's a part of me wishing that u'll one day wake up and realised that u made the biggest mistake letting me go. and we'll get back and live happily ever after...
then maybe i've not moved on huh?
when do u know when u've moved on?
is it when u start dating other people... or is it when u forget how strong his colgne smell is... or is it, when u stop thnking, "he wld say this, or relate his stories to ur mum...
when? why can't life just be in black or white. where the only two choices are like, or don't like?
why does life have to be black, white and grey?!
sigh.
have i gotten over u? i don't know. it'll be hard to find someone that can be better than u in every aspect.
is there a mr. greater-than-perfect since u're mr. perfect?
