Thursday, September 30, 2004
kc and i danced.
jt was there, gary was there.
gosh, it was like old times. it felt like old times.
gary told me things that i wished he didn't tell me.
but it's been so long.. things between us are long over... and now u want to regret? apparently you're not going to do anything abt it cos u're leaving in 2 weeks.
that's like deja vu man. wtf... it was this reason 4 years ago, 2 years ago and now this. 3 years ago it was "we're still young", 1 year ago was "i like someone else"... come on dude... got to get more creative here.
as much as you have wronged me or have cheated me... i have no ill feelings... yes, despite my constant rambling on my blog... but i have moved on... i have been with other people, and so have u...
why come back when u know i always have a soft spot for u? i'm not a spare tire... though i look like one...
at least i was with gene when i saw kc. haha... i always dreamt of the day when i'll meet kc when i have a good looking guy strung over my shoulders... and this... was exactly my dream!!! haha...
gene was very automatic... the minute i told him that kc and jt were my ex-s, his hand went across my waist and the other over my shoulder and introduced himself to them. talk abt making k & j jealous!!! haha... i likeeeeeeeee
but i am going over to his place this weekend... a secret rendevous? haha... nice... perhaps reliving the past... maybe.... but i think it'll be a small gathering with jt and gary too lar... that wld be nice... haha... just to catch up on old times before he leaves...
a fling? a one night affair? nah... don't have the time, and i don't think i can do it with him... it'll be too painful, with all the memories coming back... sigh... can't do it, won't do it. gotta keep a level head, and just say no.
yes, if only no was that easy to say.
