Tuesday, September 21, 2004
i think i talk too much for my own good.
had hi tea with bern and ah kee at regent.
we talked and of course after we have no more to talk abt ourselves, we talk abt others.
it seems like he is really happy to be a father. but i don't understand. is it possible to love your wife and be excited abt a kid when u're flying off the shanghai to go for shanghainese girls?
can u love someone with all ur heart and yet have someone outside because u're bored of looking at the same person at night every night.
"you eat rice everyday not xian meh?"
this is something i don't understand abt guys... how can u get married, settle down and still wanna play around outside? it's like having ur cake and eat it.
now now... everyone knows that u can't do that. it's just simply not fair.
but is it just me thinking this way? am i imposing my views of the world on others... i've been told that i judge people. ren said that i judge pple based on wat i think is right. it just isn't fair to judge based on my standard. but how then? do i just see their behaviour as acceptable because they don't think there's anything wrong to it?
the world has changed man... either that or i've been brought up thinking that the world is so merry and round. just cos my family is still together doesn't mean that no one out there has a broken family.
but i wld like to think that when the time comes, my partner will be faithful and not fool around outside. either that or i can always leash him up.
maybe i shldn't voice my opinion too much. i ain't no saint too.
"let anyone without sin be the first to throw a stone"
but the more i judge people, the more people will start to judge me in the same way. i really am no saint. some things that i've preached but not practiced. bern prob thinks i'm a hyprocrite. but he doesn't know the whole story... it was a mistake.
i shld not voice my opinions on these contraversial issues. wat i like, is not the norm.
hey, i can't shit where i eat right...
neither can i bring my own cha siew pao to yum cha...
so how now? keep my mouth shut and just nod my head? and just be stunned at how diverse and liberal this world is now?
maybe i'm too young. maybe staying in singapore has made me really sheltered. maybe it's just not time for me to open my eyes... and see things that i knew existed, but not so common...
