Resting & Re-evaluations
Being at home for the past 4 days has been DAMN SHIOK man. it's been a long time since i'm able to just lie in bed and not want to get up, not listen to CNA first thing in the morning, and rush all the way from my doorstep to office.
but all good things must end right. damn. my mc only covers me for 4 days, and i've decided to take the rest as annual leave. i want some time out to do my own thing, spend some time with my family, and some time with the coz and andy. cool stuff... just totally enjoy myself before going back to work.
been thinking abt life in general. i guess that happens when u're being fed a whole HALF tablet of muscle relaxant. woohoo. vic said that i was the most playful among all of us... i was like, wtf?!! but then again, i do admit that i have a playful streak, but i also do know my limits...albeit sober... haha...
told vic that i'll make a public announcement on my blog on my innocence, that i have never taken those pills, nor do i know how those pills work. and yes, i'm terribly afraid of retribution, and that's prob the only reason. we had a nice chat at sushi tei eh! ... where's superman?!!
on a seperate note, i'm plagued with a new decision. shld i continue my life as it is now, or forgo my loyalty and alligence to those that have believed in me? i have been given a great opportunity, and for me to back out on it wld be alright in the corporate world, but personally, i wld feel like i've let them down. like i let the team down. i'm also afraid of the backlash, the minute i step out of those office doors, i don't think i can step back in.
it's one of those make it or break it situations, and i have to be ready to take a gamble if that's what i truely want to do.
eric said something along the lines of, "people take marriage so lightly, they think more when buying a car than when considering who to marry for the rest of their lives". i guess it's true... i'm thinking more abt my career than my life choices itself, but then again, why shldn't i?
it's not that i have a partner that i am accountable to, that my time has to be reserved for him... my time right now is mine to deligate. i can spend all my time on work, on advancing my career, on bettering myself. so why is it that wrong to spend so much time thinking abt work?
well, my decision is still unmade, and my choices are still abundent. but first, let me enjoy the one week break i have.
