Saturday, July 02, 2005
new phase
i collected my gown today. it seemed so weird crossing the bridge to take 151 to school, like it's been such a long time since i've done that. but it's only been 8 weeks since i left school, and yet, it seemed like eons ago.
walking back into nus, it felt different. no more "shit, slogging to get to school" but more of, "hey, i survived this and look where i am now". i walked in, holding my head up high, being able to tell anyone if they asked what i was doing now, and how proud i wld be able to say that yes, i'm employed and YES, i'm a highly paid professional.
it's such a different feeling to walk into a place, knowing that u've overcomed it. situations always seem so much more unachievable going through it, but once the hurdles are crossed, sweat shed and blood lost, it never seemed that hard looking back.
do i miss nus? well, not really. i miss waking up and attending lectures at 11pm, having the freedom to do watever i wanted, whenever i wanted. but i don't think i'll ever feel nostalgic looking back. nus was never a second home to me, and i never ever felt that i truely belonged there.
maybe it's cos i didn't stay in hall, or that i never made a close group of friends. maybe. but i will never miss the place itself. never had any memories that lingered or moved me so much. it was an institution where i got my degree. nothing more.
do i look forward to wat's ahead for me? of course... it's a new stage in my life, and i'm honestly hoping that things will go according to plan, and that i will achieve the greater plans there are planned out for me.
so come 2 weeks, when i walk on the stage and collect my degree, and i look at my family in the crowd, sitting there and beaming with pride, that will mark the end of being dependent. from that moment on, i'm independent...
and with great power, comes great reponsibility.
that will be a significant and defining moment in my life.
