Sunday, March 20, 2005
i realised that i'm a cynical bitch.
i can find so many things to complain abt, so many pple that i don't agree with, and just so many reasons to be unhappy. and i wonder why i have no friends.
i am very negative, and sometimes i feel that i rub that effect off some of my more positive friends.
maybe i'm just pms-ing now, but i think it has more to do with my tooth, or my ex-tooth. let's just say that we had a pretty bad break up. the gum area is giving me problems now, and i think it might have been infected.
isn't the gums the worst place to have an infection? you can't talk properly for one, and for another, how can the wound heal when that area is forever wet? and then since u can't open ur mouth, u have the most awful bad breath ever, it's like giving those prc-s a run for their money.
anyway, the tooth is really giving me alot of problems, and it's funny, cos even though i've extracted it, it's causing me more pain than before. it's like real life problems huh... the repercussions are more serious that the actual act itself.
come to think of it, i do find myself in those kind of situations more often than not. that's usually when i'm intoxicated, but i do make rather horrible decisions. these are the kind that will come back and bite u in the behind kind. yes. it's like sitting on salt water with an open wound. yea,. woah mama pain.
i guess i cld try to be less cynical and be more happy. that wld make everyone better off eh. haha... but who cares? i only care abt myself, as do all the people in the world, except maybe some saints and mj(he wants to heal the world. give him credit lar)...
so yes, i'm a selfish, cynical bitch.
how nice.
and this selfish, cynical and whining bitch has a massive headache!!! oh... kill me now, pls pls pls
